| So its been long over a year. I see all this junk about Raven in my xanga. I hardly think of her anymore. Shaina takes up all my thoughts. My life is good. I am happy where I landed. My heart is no longer broken. It hasn't been for a long time.
I am reading a book people say will change me, change the way I think. I say their wrong. Events not words change me. It is called atlas shrugged.
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| I am not going to do it again. Fuck no. I did it once with her. Can't people be fucking light hearted. I get laughed at. What do I do? I fucking laugh too. Maybe it is easier for me. People think I am stupid and laugh at me for it. I Laugh with them thinking if they only knew. If I didn't Laugh I would be Insane.
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| Well. Where is God? Funny. He turned his back on us. That bitch. What the Hell God you made me now make my life what I want it to be. Fuck! Fuck your plan God. Who do you think you are anyways to tell me what I can do with my life. Why do you still call me? Funny. All this time I thought you turned your back on me. It was me who turn my back on you. Stop! Stop calling me. I know. I just can't. That life style is no longer me. I miss you. I can't go back. These chains run to deep to break free. They all left me here to rot so this is where I stay. Arrrg. It was them I leaned on, they left me here. They were your childern, my brothers. How can I trust you. I am not even sure you are there. Maybe my new friends are right. Do you exist? Damn. Of course Paul followed you. You proved yourself to him. I would drop everything to follow you if I was sure I wasn't following a dream. Fuck! IF YOU WANT TO USE ME GOD, FREE ME! |
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| I think I am going to isolate myself.
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| - Goodbye Blue Sky
So I think Raven leaving me is one of the better things that happened
to me in awhile. Dont get me wrong I love her and i miss her and it
hurts badly, but i have gotten to hang out with friends that I hadnt
seen in for ever.
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